Oh my knuckle-hearted twin
I didn’t know where to begin
When disappointment settled in
As quickly as we met
I gave a mile, you took an inch
But not before and never since
Has anyone had me convinced
There’d be no regrets
You used to sing, you used to dance
I used to squint at burning arcs
Your cigarette drew in the dark:
Together and alone
And in your room under the stairs
All heaving shelves and empty chairs
Your contradictions everywhere
I thought you’d brought me home
I don’t know why I take such pains
To keep you gently entertained
When disillusion takes the reigns
Or when she’s all at sea
A later hour, a shorter night
I take a guilty taxi ride
We watch the sun rise on our lies
You’re sleeping when I leave
Because the first time that we woke
You sealed tight as morning broke
Lit up in shadow, froze in smoke
Together and alone
And I was quieted by your ghost
All creaking lips and stale clothes
But then you stopped and pulled me close
As you walked me home